A girl name Peety

Sorry I've been missing this week guys! It's been a crazy busy week for me.

I can't stay long,  but the other day I said I had more news to share and I'm here to share it!

First of all, we traded in our beautiful car! :(

We had a Volvo S40, which was my dream car! I loved it to death, but sadly it wasn't fuel efficient enough to make sense for me to drive it back and forth 45 minutes every day, so we traded her in for a Prius.

If you follow me on instagram (@tanyagrasley) you would have seen these pictures pop up this week.

We named our Prius Peety, but don't be fooled by her name, it is still a girl! 

Are we the only 20-something year olds that still name our cars?

My other news is that I will be quitting my job! I couldn't share until it was official.

I want to be able to focus on school and have that be my first priority, and my company is starting to move away from working around college students schedules, so I decided it wasn't a good fit for me anymore. I am going to look for something that is less demanding and more flexible schedule wise, but I have no job offers yet. 

It's a little scary since I already put my notice in at work, but if I don't find a job I know that we will be able to survive for awhile without my income. 

This is the first time I've ever quit a job without having another job offer, but I feel like God is telling me I need to trust Him on this one, so that's what I'm doing. He always comes through for me!

We've got lots of crazy changing going on over at my house!

Hope everyone else is doing alright out there!

Have a wonderful weekend!

I have a problem

I'm fickle.

There I said it!

I am always changing my mind, I will decide on one thing and then 20 minutes later decide that I don't like it anymore and pick something different.
My blog is no exception.

Thus, I have a new blog header! Again.
I'm pretty sure I change my header more often than I change my clothes.

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Ok, that isn't true, I change my clothes way more often!
I was just realizing how many pictures of myself there were on my blog (just the basic design, not including posts) and was feeling a bit egotistical and vain.

I was hating pulling up my own blog because I personally don't like to stare at a million pictures of myself.
Thus a new header was born!
You like?
Me too!

For now.



Alright, next topic, my life.

Last week I wrote about how I was feeling pretty down that things in our life were not going as planned. Like moving and what not.
I did say that I was going to see this in a positive light, but I was still feeling very stressed about everything.
Today, I am feeling so much better about our current situation.
I'm actually very excited about this change of plans because this was our original plan, we just got side tracked and dreamy-eyed imagining a whole new life for ourselves in a completely different part of the state.
Anyways, things are going in an even better direction.
The program that is offered at the college campus closer to our home is really awesome and I'm super excited to start working on it.
I'm going to be pursuing a B.S. in Nutrition/ Dietetics, which is something that I am very passionate about.
Part of me is a little surprised that I even considered going to another University or campus because this program is far and away the best of all of my options, and the only true undergraduate nutrition program in the state! (at least that I have been able to find).
If I do well I can be placed straight into an internship and then take an exam to become an RD (Registered Dietitian), which is really all you could ever hope for with a college degree!

All this to say that all the pieces are falling into place perfectly.
I couldn't have even planned things to go this well.
There are still sacrifices being made, but I know that they are all for the best.

There are more exciting things to share, but I think I am going to leave them for when everything is official. Don't want to jump the gun on my announcements!
Plus, they are probably only exciting to me so don't get your hopes up too high.

Closed doors

Yesterday I found out that we will not be moving. At least not right now.
It was kind of stressful news, because now I am going to have to commute every day to school about 45 minutes, which means that we are going to have to rearrange our budget so that we can afford all of that gas money.

Commuting is also a scary subject because I still have panic attacks when I drive on the freeway, but that is a whole other topic for another day.

At first when we found out that Alex didn't get the promotion, it sucked, but I wasn't that upset.
Even though Alex was pretty crushed. He felt like a huge failure and like he wasn't providing for our family. Luckily I was pretty calm and I helped reassure him that God is in control and everything will be fine.

Then yesterday I broke down.
While Alex was at work I was getting ready to leave to run some errands and my heart started racing.
I am trying to transfer my admission from one campus to the other (one that is closer).
I can't register for classes until I go to an orientation.
And until my campus transfer gets processed.
Which I thought I had already missed all of the orientations offered.
And on top of everything I know that my job is going to have a really hard time working around my school schedule... as in they may not do it if it is too bad.

So I was a little stressed, and scrambling, and disappointed, and confused, and feeling a bit helpless.
I sat down on the floor in my closet and cried.
Not sure where to go next because I feel like everything is out of my hands.
Which is probably because it is out of my hands.
I think I have been trying to hold back those tears for awhile.
I've wanted so badly to trust that God has everything figured out.
But yesterday, as I sat there with tears streaming down my cheeks, I prayed.
I told God that I don't know how to trust Him with this,
that no matter how much I strive to let this go, I honestly don't know how.
And I prayed for peace, and patients and understanding.

Then Alex called.
As calm as can be he told me that he wasn't worried at all.
He really sounded at peace with everything.
And he reassured me that everything was going to be fine,
all those questions would be figured out in due time.
He reminded me that God doesn't close doors for no reason.

My heart immediately stopped pounding.
And I felt calmer than I have in months.

As helpless and out of control as I felt,
I remembered that it is my choice to let my circumstances control me.
And I realized that I could take all that pent up fear and emotion
and turn it into a feeling of empowerment.

I realized that this door closed, and opened up a million other possibilities with it.
It doesn't mean failure.
It just means different options.
Maybe even better options.

This next term is going to be a tough one, but I'm excited for the challenges and possibilities it opens.
I'm excited to be closing one chapter of my life, and opening a new one.

If you really knew me...

Alright... I'm giving in to blogging peer pressure and doing one of these posts.

Ok, no one is forcing me, but I am still going to do it.

I give credit back to Traffic Jelly for coming up with this genius idea.

If you really knew me, you'd know:

Every time I write the word beautiful I say b-e-a-utiful in my head. Like Jim Carrey says in Bruce Almighty.

I'm Mexican... even though I don't look like it.

I can't stand being cold.

That I am somewhat of a health food freak, but every once in awhile I crave Oreo's and Alex and I will run to the store to buy them.

One of my favorite TV shows is Felicity... which isn't on anymore. In fact, it hasn't been on since I was like 14.

I have to eat breakfast everyday, otherwise by about 9-10 I will most likely pass out.

I am not a clean freak, but I desperately wish that I was.

Clutter stresses me out, and when my house is a mess, instead of just cleaning it, I stress out and do nothing.

I get really frustrated at incompetent people.

And people who think they are entitled to give advice on subjects they know nothing about. (Like single people giving advice to married people, or children-less people giving advice to mothers).

I think that people use the term "photographer" too loosely. Meaning that I would never call myself a photographer, or try to charge people to have me take pictures for them... because in comparison to a real [good] photographer I have a lot to learn.

I'm not perfect and I definitely get insecure about a lot of things.

I've never been in a wedding, except my mom's.

My dad adopted me when I was in middle school... meaning that he is not my biological dad, but he is the only dad that I have ever known.

When I was in high school I wasn't allowed to give blood because I didn't meet the minimum weight requirement.

Not that I wanted to. I pass out almost every time I get my blood drawn.

This last Christmas was the first time I ever had my own Christmas tree, because I thought that it was a stupid tradition... until I saw all the pretty trees on the blogosphere.

I cringe whenever I hear/see anyone biting their nails. It even makes me want to vomit sometimes. [Sorry to you nail biters... like my husband!]

It drives me crazy when people say "Have a good rest of your day" because I know they should be saying "Enjoy the rest of your day".

That's all for now!

You Challenge: Ten Secrets

Today I'm linking up with Lauren and Tiffany for their 10 day You Challenge!

It sounds like it is going to be lots of fun, so every Tuesday for the next 10 weeks look forward to learning a little bit more about me.

Today's topic is,

Ten Secrets:

One. When I wake up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, sometimes I make my husband come with me because I'm scared I'm going to get attacked on the way.

Two. When I drink anything with caffeine or sugar I get incredibly hyper. Usually I just go crazy and we wonder why, and then awhile later we realize I have had caffeine/sugar.

Three. I'm hypoglycemic (not a secret really) and when I get upset or angry I start shaking and can tell that my blood sugar is dropping. Apparently anxiety and hypoglycemia are not a good mix.

Four. I get really self-conscious when I go out in public alone. 

Five. I talk really quiet and when I talk louder it actually strains my throat and I lose my voice.

People have always made comments about how quiet I talk and it has always been frustrating because I feel like I am talking as loud as I can.

Six. I rarely ever cook. As a wife I usually feel like this somehow has made me a failure, but I just hate cooking. I can do it, and Alex even tells me that I am a way better cook than he is, but I just hate doing it.

Seven. When I buy something expensive I feel really guilty and feel like I have to justify my purchase to anyone who asks how much I spent. Even with a $60 dollar purse I just bought.

I feel like I'm being selfish.

Eight. When I don't get along with someone it is really hard for me. I am always trying hard to be as nice as I can, even when they make me really mad. I always feel like I need to be the bigger person.

Even though sometimes I'm not.

Nine. I don't always brush my teeth at night. I'd like to say that it is because I forget, but really it is because I'm too lazy to get out of bed once I get in.

Ten. A few years ago I struggled with compulsive exercising (it's like an eating disorder for exercising). It was when I first started running and I became very obsessive over it. I would constantly be talking about my work outs. Even though I went to school from 8:30-1:30 and worked from 2-9 M-F I would still make it to the gym 4-5 times a week and had anxiety over missing workouts.

Then one day I had a panic attack while running on the treadmill and haven't been able to run on one since. 

Please join in! I'd love to learn more about you!

Is it really Monday already??

This weekend went by way too fast! But luckily I got some good quality time with the hubs!

We took a spontaneous trip to the beach!

It was supposed to be really hot and we needed an escape from our un-airconditioned house so we just took off! We never do that, we are usually so up-tight about our budget, but yesterday we definitely needed the break.

(Side note: Our beaches are cold and windy! It is always a safe bet that we can go there to get away from the heat.)

We walked on the beach for about 10 minutes, just long enough to snap these pictures, and get crazy beach hair! The wind was so strong I thought my ears were going to start bleeding, so we didn't stay long.

We headed off to the Outlet malls where Alex surprised me by letting me buy some new clothes!

Which was much needed!!

And I found this perfect bag at Gap for school! It is so huge I will be able to fit my lap top and books in it! Plus, it is super cute.

Then we had a nice dinner at the McMenamins in Lincoln city, which is one of our favorite places to eat... And drink beer. :)

I suppose it is back to reality now.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Our life right now

This is my life at the moment...
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Waiting, waiting, waiting.
And it's frustrating!

I have some what brought this up a couple of times like when I said we don't know when we are moving and when I told everyone about how I got accepted into a University.

Well here is the situation...
School starts in a little over a month, and we still haven't moved. We are waiting on Alex's job. Basically he is trying to get promoted, or I should say re-promoted (because he had the position but he chose to step down from that position almost a year ago), so that he can transfer, 1) because he doesn't like his current position and misses his old position, and 2) because his current position has no openings anywhere.

We had been told that in August they would review how Alex was doing and let him know if he can be promoted back to his old position.
Well, it's August.
And we haven't heard anything one way or the other.
There are also 0 openings in the district that the school I applied to is in. Because of this, I have applied to a few other places where there are job openings, and one that is only 45 minutes away so if I have to I can commute.
But I don't want to commute.
And we are hoping and praying that he gets this promotion.

Apparently we are supposed to know by the end of next week one way or the other if we are going to be able to transfer.
I am just frustrated because I can't register for classes until I know if and where we are moving to, so I know which school we are going to.

So for now I just have to keep praying and being patient.
It will all work out in the end.