Friday, October 26, 2012

Keep on keepin' on

I'm taking a break from the bottomless pit that is my homework and studying to tell you guys that I'm still alive. There is such a hard balance that I am trying to find between life, rest, school, and blogging right now. Advice is more than welcome. There are so many of you out there that I truly look up to because you are so consistant with your posts, and yet you live full busy and crazy lives of your own, and somehow one doesn't seem to be effected by the other.

Ok, I don't look up to you just because you write posts all the time. I look up to you because somehow you continue to go from one day to the next living such busy lives and it doesn't seem to limit your ability to keep giving more. Maybe you are tired, maybe you have bad days, but that doesn't stop you from giving all you've got.

I have never been that person. If I'm overwhelmed I tend to drop everything that is on my plate. My list of priorities completely falls apart and I become completely focused on holding my head above water. I've always wanted to be the person that goes into a challenging situation with my head held high and unfazed by the chaos going on around me. The reality is that I go in with a determination, of which may not always be healthy. I go in expecting to be ripped to shreds and intent on hanging on for dear life.

I may be making this all sound a little flowery, but what I am trying to say is that prior to heading into a challenge I always assume that at some point things are going to get so hard that I am just going to give in and give up. Give up either on the task at hand or all the other priorities in my life. Including sleep. Then when things do get a little challenging, everything falls by the wayside, until I am forced to choose between succeeding in what I set out to do or having a life and being happy.

But I don't think it has to be this way.

I have to believe that there can be a happy medium. Between putting as much effort as I need to be successful into my work, and not having my life fall apart in the mean time. There must be some way to do this, because I see so many other people doing it. Without being utterly desperate for a break and without thinking that they may fail if they aren't constantly operating at the end of their rope.

I don't say any of this to make you think that my life is falling apart. At least not yet. I'm actually loving every bit of where I am at in my life. Things have gotten a bit hard at times...
( Like staying up until 1:30am studying before my midterm on monday morning, for which I had to get up for at 6am. There are countless times I considered skipping out on the rest of my classes after that early morning midterm, but somehow I stuck it out for the rest of my classes that day.)
but the benefits from my hard work are very much worth the effort. What I am saying is that, although things could be a lot worse, I am already giving up on some of my other commitments in order to keep myself sain. Such as this blog. And for that I hope you guys will forgive me. I'm trying to strike a balance.

The problem isn't necessarily the time it takes me to write a post, it is the guilt I feel for spending any amount of time away from either my homework/studying or quality time with my husband. And that is the part that I need to balance. Learning to be ok with taking a little bit of time to myself, without having this awful nagging in the back of my mind of all the things I should be doing.

How do you guys learn to take "me" time, without feeling guilty about all your other responsibilities?

Friday, October 19, 2012

How to annoy your husband :)

Yay! I'm writing my second post for the week! I'm so proud of myself.
Yep... life is crazy.
And here is what it has looked like recently via my Instagram:


Meeting my friends adorable kitten!!

A girls night! (Sara got cut out!! She is adorable so you really are missing out.)

More girls night.

My niece asked me to be one of her bridesmaids!

Rain.... no surprise there.

Nail date with my sisters and the most adorable niece ever!

Our nails :)

Like I said most adorable niece ever!

And me, annoying the crap out of Alex while I sing along to my music while doing my homework :)
^^This was really happening.

Since the beginning of this term we have discovered that I may be an external processor. Typically while working on my chemistry equations I find myself making up songs about them... it goes something like this,

6.022 x 10^23.... the 23rd.... the 23rrrrrddddd moooolllleeeessss of Siiiillllvvvveeeerrr
times, times, times, times
11 mollleeessss of siiiillllvvvvveeeerrrr

Ok, I completely made that one up on the spot, but you catch my drift. 
But this is really helping me study, I decided during my next midterm (just had my first one last night!) I'm going to sing about all the calculations I do, and I will for sure get an A!
And kicked out of my test.
which would lead to an F.... Hmmm
Plan B. Sing in my head, and dance.

Alright, I gonna go have some down time, sipping on my nice warm cup of earl grey tea and catch up on the New Girl!
And then back to homework so I can have another girls night!!

Have a great weekend friends!

Linking up with:

life rearranged

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Where I've been

This is what I looked like when Alex came home from work yesterday.

It might seem like I am sleeping,
but in reality I am just thinking really hard about my epidemiology paper.
I promise....

It was actually a paper for my public health class about epidemiology, but I just feel like it sounds smarter to say epidemiology paper.

 I know I was MIA all last week, for which I apologize for. School has been kicking my booty. 
Which is great, I wanted a challenge. I just forget that challenges can actually be... challenging.

And since I have nothing good to write about today, I will leave you with these three completely random pictures. The last one is my favorite.

I got that blue dress at a garage sale for a dollar. Yep, $1.

My baby, Bret.

See you later folks! Hopefully I find something good to write about soon.
Which would probably be a little easier if I actually starting thinking of things to write about.

Friday, October 5, 2012

How to be more photogenic

For those of you coming over from Nicole's blog, thanks for stopping by! I'm excited to see you here in my neck of the woods.

For everyone else, I am guest posting over at The Tape Diaries today all about how to be a little more photogenic. I've learned a lot about this ever since I started taking pictures for fashion posts. Looking good is not an easy task, let me tell you! It takes hard work. So, if you are tired of always being annoyed because your pictures don't turn out quite the way you have pictured them, head on over to Nicole's blog and where I am sharing a few of my secrets!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

I'm dreaming of chemistry equations...

Yep, dreaming about math and chemistry. It sucks when your homework break/nap consists of dreaming about how to solve the problem you are stuck on.

This is literally my life right now. Buried in chemistry equations. Don't take this as me complaining because this is what I wanted. Not necessarily to be buried in chemistry homework, but to finish my degree and do something that I actually enjoy. To be honest, I actually kind of like chemistry and math and all that other stuff that lots of people hate. I guess this is the perfect path for me because I have lots more science classes to take. Oh goody! (please, that was sarcasm people!)

I know this isn't going to be an easy path. I know that I am going to have to fight my desires to be lazy and sleep in until noon and cuddle with my adorable cats (which is very hard to resist!). But I know that in the end it will all be worth it.

Before I started school I felt like maybe I was too old to pursue a career change. But now that I am there, I know that I still have so much life ahead of me. There are people who wait until they are in their 30's or 40's and suddenly decide they want to be a nurse, and then go to school and their dreams become a reality. I'm not even nearly that age, so what is stopping me? It isn't an unattainable goal. This is something that I can accomplish if I really want to.

Every opportunity has been opened to me, and my job is only to embrace those opportunities and run with them. I'm excited about the challenges ahead of me, because I know that it is going to build character along the way.

I know that I could get discouraged along the way, but I just hope that the people in my life will help me snap out of it. And that does include you guys!

For now I need to sleep, because I have to get up at 5:30 again tomorrow morning. Yikes.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

A picture is worth a thousand words

Shirt: AE // Sweater: Target // Shorts: TJmaxx
At least I hope so because I don't have time to write a thousand words for you guys today.
This is me with nearly no make up on and un-styled hair.
These pictures turned out so good that I didn't even edit them.
Mostly because I just don't have the time right now.
Sorry guys, this is my post today!
Expect a lot more like this now that school is back in session!

Have an amazing week!