Thankfulness

I'll be honest, I have no idea what to talk about today. So I am just going to try to be random.
Which usually doesn't really work out very well for me. I'm just not a very random person.
Well, I bet my husband would disagree, but that is just because he doesn't know what he is talking about.

Alright I just sat here for about 10 minutes trying to think of something to talk about.
Actually, that's a lie. I got on PicMonkey (pretty much one of my favorite sites) and put a beard on a picture of myself.
Since yesterday I said that is what my husband looks like...

I think I was wrong about that, by the way.
Also, this beard is made from a bunch of mustaches.... incase you wanted to make your own?

Well, since I can't think of anything random to write, I guess I will go with what I was originally thinking of writing about today.
Yes, I had a backup plan, it probably should have been my first plan. I was just going to see if I could write a really great post about nothing.
I didn't.

Moving on.

{Here is the serious side of today's post.}
I'm trying to focus on being thankful lately.
Because I find that being thankful really squashes the bitterness and resentment that I find myself carrying around from time to time.
I'll be the first to admit that I am a grudge holder.
When I feel like someone has wronged me I hold onto it for a long time, even after I have "forgiven" them.
This isn't something that I particularly like about myself, it's just a fact I have come to recognize, and hopefully something I can overcome.
Part of me overcoming it is to learn how to have a thankful heart.

When you sit down and quiet yourself to think about all the details of life, sometimes it can hit you in a flood of emotion. We have so much to be thankful for.
I have so much to be thankful for.
Every day I wake up beside an amazing man who loves and cherishes me, more than I have ever known.
I have at least a small portion of time to dedicate to myself nearly every day.
My life really isn't that hard.
Maybe I haven't had everything I've ever wanted handed to me, but I think that in itself is a blessing.
We pay all of our bills.
We have all of our needs and many of our wants met.
And I'm thankful that I have a place I can come to and make a fool of myself and still be accepted and appreciated. (ahem, I'm talking about this blog guys!)
What more could I really ask for?

I suppose there is a lot more that I would like from life than to just have my needs and wants met, but that is something I can plan towards.
That is what goals are for.
To be thankful for what you have now, but recognize that there is more to this journey than just being content.

I know that my life is going to keep growing and changing, but I'm learning to be thankful in every step of the journey.
I want to appreciate where I am now, instead of striving to be somewhere I am not yet.

Just a couple things I'm thankful for...

Today I just want to say how thankful I am for my friends, all of them. There are a couple friends in particular that I know, in some shape or form, will always be a part of my life. There have been years where we haven't talked at all, years that we have fought, years that I thought we would never speak again, and then years where I remember that my life would be so different had I never met them. Sometimes we live in different cities, states, and even countries, but somehow our paths have always found a way to meet up.

This is true friendship. Not one that is fake, but one where life pulls you apart and pushes you together and even in the times were you are angry with each other, you couldn't imagine your life without them. 

I just want to say thank you for sticking with me through my personal battles and constant ebbs and flows of life, and helping me grow and become a better person along the way. Both of you mean a lot to me, regardless of what we have been through, and I'm so grateful I met each of you so many years ago.