Goodbye forever, Or just for awhile?

I know it has been a long time since I wrote a post. And even worse, in my last post I stated that I would have a little vlog up for you guys like a week and a half ago. Clearly that hasn't happened. Somehow I always forget my little rule of never making any promises because as soon as I make the promise, I never follow through (at least here in blog land).

Anyways, I'm writing this post to say one thing and one thing only. I've decided to take a break from blogging.

I would like to claim the excuse that my life has just been too busy for me to keep up with this, but that is just not true. To be honest, I just don't feel any motivation right now. Every day that goes by that I don't write a word I feel an unreasonable amount of guilt. And I don't like that. That is why I decided to take a break, because at least if I tell you guys this is happening, I don't have to feel guilty.

I'm not saying I'm going to be gone forever. I'm also not not saying that. (Double negative, figure it out.) As of right now I plan to start back up in December... but I'm not going to give myself a timeline. I just need to take a step back and reevaluate why I am doing this. What do I want this blog to accomplish? Do I just want to gain a bunch of followers so I can feel good about myself? Do I want to try to be inspiring? If so, what does that even look like? Is this really a place where I can accomplish those things?

Everything in my life feels a little bit unorganized right now and I just need to try to figure out a routine. My life has taken a lot of turns over the past few months. Nearly everything is new to me and I just feel like I am sinking in a bottomless pit of chaos. Not because there is too much, but just because I have let everything fall into it's own place.

It's like when my room gets messy and it drives me crazy, but I feel too overwhelmed to clean anything, so I just let it all pile up until it makes my whole life feel like it is going to come crashing down around me and I am helpless to stop it. That sounds rather dramatic, but that is really what happens to me. I need things to be organized and planned out, and when they aren't I feel confused and helpless. Even though in reality I have everything I need to fix the situation.

So that is what I'm doing. I'm taking this time to figure out what I want. To organize my life a bit. To set some goals and put in to place some structure. In all areas of my life, not just this one. And usually cleaning means making a mess bigger before it gets better.

Ok, I've said a lot more than one thing. So with that I am out of here. More likely than not, I'll be back. Because regardless of why I come to this little world, I just haven't figured out how to keep myself away.

My first vlog, and three years of marriage

Hey everyone! Here I am with the first vlog of my life. Not sure how I feel about this, but I'm posting it anyways. I feel like my face is a little weird looking, but whatever. Maybe I will have to start learning how to be more videogenic too? Also, I hate how my voice sounds completely different when I hear it recorded than it does in my head. You guys know what I'm talking about, right?

Anyways, this does not have any answers to questions about marriage. We left our camera and tripod at home on accident, which is what we were going to do the vlog with, so I decided that I will do that vlog later. I will try to post it on monday so you guys can keep sending us questions if you have anything you would like us to answer. I got some good ones already so I'm excited! They don't have to be advice about marriage or dating, you can just ask us stuff about anything you are curious about our relationship or our life in general.


Now you enjoy this video, while I start working on some homework in the most comfortable bed of my life! Then we can start celebrating our three amazing years of marriage!! Yay!

first vlog from Tanya on Vimeo.

Time flies when you're having fun!

Photo's by Zach Grasley

Tomorrow is mine and Alex's 3 year wedding anniversary!

Wow, I can't believe it's been three years!

I feel like after three years you are officially no longer newlyweds.

You've already been through a lot of ups and downs of life.

You've had time to figure each other out and learn a bit about your roles as a husband and wife.

Do we know everything and are perfect because we have been married for three years?

Not a chance.

Do we know a lot more than we did three years ago?

Absolutely!

Do we still need to work on having a healthy relationship?
Every. single. day.

As a little treat for you guys, I've decided to do my first vlog!

And an extra little treat is that Alex will be joining me for this first vlog of mine.

I'm excited!

We will be answering some FAQ's about married life and some things we have focused on to maintain a healthy relationship, as well as some of our life long goals to make sure we can continue to thrive as a couple.

If you have any specific questions you'd like us to answer leave a comment or email me! 

Just remember that we aren't perfect! We do not at all have all the answers, we are just learning as we go, and thought it would be fun to share some of the experiences we have had with other people.

Hopefully we will have this little vlog up for you tomorrow, but forgive me if it doesn't get posted until monday. After all it is our anniversary, and we will be out celebrating! 

Photo's by Zach Grasley